stuck by the deadly rhythm of the production line

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 19:56:10 GMT

if you were to leave... i would really be alone.... i don't even think much of my "friends" even understand.

katie, thanks for the cadberry eggs!
brian, you are always there for me, and i was an ass to you friday night... sorry!

THE END

"thinking out loud just makes you turn away
your silence is crushing... all i want... animal."

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 19:50:07 GMT

hey look!

that's life passing you by...

yet some still act like twelve year olds.

THE END

Sun, 14 Mar 2004 06:50:23 GMT

ever get that feeling that no one understands you?

why did i even ask.

THE END

"the more i'm awake, the more i want to sleep"
"i would not trust me much if i were you"

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 17:45:40 GMT

i want things to be more clear... i feel like i am in limbo and can't get out, unless you let me, unless you want me to.

please let this work out... i miss you.

THE END

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 17:42:29 GMT

i can't believe i forgot to write an entry about this.... i tried out for, robbie, mike, and tis's band, and they liked me... they are really great guys, and i hope this works out.

after school, katie and i are going on an adventure to escape. just get away for a few hours, to escape all thought of worries, and what not... and of course tonight we will re-join society.

THE END

p.s.... i love Waffles

conservatives/ bible thumpers/ capitalists

Thu, 11 Mar 2004 17:09:45 GMT

I really am curious to what sanctity the religious right is trying to protect. A lot more than half of married people get divorced, or live together unhappily. affairs have almost become a norm of marriage. and before our time... marriages were planned, usually between a 12-14 year old girl and an older man.... in all cases marriage has really degraded itself....

What marx was saying about ending the institution of marriage was not just one of those darn commy beliefs.... i and many others came to the same conclusion before even having read the communist manifesto... really why do you have to legaly bind your love?... who are you trying to prove something to?...

It's true, sodomy does not create a child... big surprise.... but what about all the straight men and womyn who have sex for recreation, for pleasure... surly you must be against these people as well... i highly doubt that every person against gay marriage does not have sex for pleasure and not to have children.... some married couples may choose to never have children... should we take their marriage lisences away too?

isn't the world overpopulated anyway?

"does not mean they have the right to marry someone of their own sex".... i thought we lived in the land of the "free" since when can someone like you say if two people have the right to do something or not.

an anti-flag song.... "a right to choose"

"Thrown out by her family. in the midst of anger. Mom and dad can't make sense, of her sexual preference. it seems the cars, just drive by on this night. no one has any idea what this feels like.

you wave your flag, tell me i'm free, then use the word fag to fuck with me.

judged by her parents, and the public. the fingers pointed at them, well i'll point mine right back. they must realize, you can't change who you love. gender is not the issue.

that night she said i will be true, meant every word she said to you.

it seems today to be yourself, takes so much courage and strength. if you were half the human as people who "come out" this world would be a better place.

you wave your flag, tell me i'm free, then use the word fag to fuck with me.

go and wave your flag... I'M FREE."

Homosexuals are not who they are because there is something wrong with them... they are that way because they follow their hearts.... they love who they love... they are just as intelegent, just as capable of benefitting our society... they are absolutly no different than anyone else...

if marriage were simply a christian belief than i may see where these people are comming from. but it is not... like i said it's even older than christianity itself.

Wed, 10 Mar 2004 00:27:37 GMT

i am going fucking nuts over here! i am officially getting my car, i am going out with my mom to apply at 1,000,000, places for a job. I am really excited.

THE END.

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 17:58:49 GMT

someone in the livejournal universe... needs to stop fucking jocking my interests list... grow your own fucking personality, and stop buying every cd i like and playing it in front of me and brian to impress us... we don't fucking care, be yourself. "YOU ARE NOT WHAT YOU OWN" stop trying to be.

hey Jasper, pass the cocaine!

Mon, 08 Mar 2004 17:45:51 GMT

it has come to my attention that apparently i have and still do "hard" drugs.... hahaha... and apparently "EVERYONE" heard it from someone who is "CLOSE" to me.

you people are fucking morons.

don't believe everything you hear kids!

Fri, 05 Mar 2004 17:06:45 GMT

i am talking to a realator about a house... who would have thought? ME talking to a realtor!? i'm an old man.

Thu, 04 Mar 2004 16:47:55 GMT

i fucking wrote a song and a half yesterday... this band has officially become very serious to me... i also wrote some lyrics i want to either put to one of the songs i wrote, or to a new one... the song is tentativly called...

"You would think L.A. was full of homeless, but it's really just people waiting for the bus."

i got it from a comedian who's name i forgot.

we need members... i would really like to hear chelsea and marley on keys when jason and i go to sac. it would be neat to find a female bassist too, but as of now i will take anyone who i feel fits with what is going through my little head. Drums!!!!!!! we need those bad... also any none conventional instruments would be lovely.

i really don't expect replys, i am just really excited and would rather start a band with people i am friends with than people who just want to be in a band.

i guess the secret is out now.

Wed, 03 Mar 2004 20:10:26 GMT

i was kinda... actually really upset when i found out my secret band name had been leaked to to the public... but i don't care anymore....

jason and i are officially.... What Chemistry! What Horror?

it still seems kinda dumb that we don't even have a full band yet, or that we don't really have songs yet... but last night Chelsea and i figured out that it's being stranded here in vacaville with no money, transportation or much of a culture at all... after april 22 everything will change. or who knows, it may not even be started up seriously till Jason and i are living in sac for a while.

so ya, we still need a bassist, drummer and keyboardist... jason and i are handling guitar , and i will be doing most of the vocals... unless jason wants to share equally.

all i will say about the name is i was inspired by a robert frost poem... "the compost" read it and you will see what i am talking about.

END

p.s. i am copyrighting the name today... don't even think about it.

Mon, 01 Mar 2004 18:23:12 GMT

yay for having only one period left!... bitches.

"the more i'm awake, the more i want to sleep."

Sun, 29 Feb 2004 23:41:17 GMT

i love how brian always comes to my house before and after he goes to work to smoke a cigarette.

i need to do something... yup got that on my action-item list.

END

Thu, 26 Feb 2004 17:29:44 GMT

"the third planet is sure that they're being watched,
by an eye in the sky that can't be stopped,
and when we get to the promise land, we're gonna shake the eyes hand."

sums up religion beautifully...
causing more seperation than unification... destroying more lives than saving...

it's a fucking lie.

END

p.s. the news channels provoke strange urges in me to dislike the majority of the world... whoever thinks it is there to PREVENT ongoing destruction is a fool.

i also watched the Judy Garlin documentary, that calmed me down.

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 16:51:02 GMT

brian. kyle, and lauren's day on the hill...

brian is chasing...

this cow.

lost in the valley.

praise alah!

(imaginary) band shot.

friends to the end... *awww*

lovers.

i'm rick james bitch.

magnificent.

mmmmmmm

neat.

flying darkness.

smoke break.

cool guys.

something witty.

pee pee

hot!

cocaine is one hell of a drug.

the end.

Tue, 24 Feb 2004 04:25:46 GMT

i am very happy right now...

brian gently hit a car... he sucks.

jason i have a bunch to talk to you about :)

the end

i'm rick james bitch.

Sun, 22 Feb 2004 21:34:29 GMT

last night started out bad, but ended great. it was nice to see like 8 bajillion sac kids there. Chelsea and Mason totally brought the crowd this time.

end!?

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 23:02:51 GMT

grrr, i am seeing you tonight no matter what!... i will pull some mission impossible to get through that damn security system in your house.

end

p.s. i am getting a car motha-fuckas.... it's sky blue too, pimpin.

Sat, 21 Feb 2004 20:27:25 GMT

discard last entry... it makes zero sense... jeez i must have been stoned.

jason, chelsea tonight bitches!

lauren, we are gonna bust you out.

<3 kyle

p.s., if anyone has a chance to see the butterfly effect, do it... totally worth it... if someone you know says it sucks... i bet you five bucks they are only saying it because they do not want to let go of their premature opinions on the movie before having seen it. or theuy are just too "indie" to accept a major motion picture even if it is well done.

Fri, 20 Feb 2004 23:16:34 GMT

pollution: the form of living...

colors: seen in only two dimensions

literature = masturbation

!?: that's a good question..

****note: partial fight club reference... sue me.

Thu, 19 Feb 2004 01:53:53 GMT

i thought of a band name, and i actually like it... too bad i have to keep it secret till Jason and i can find a drummer, bassist, and hopefully a keyboard player... plus i have to see if Jason aproves, i hope you do.

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 23:04:26 GMT

you, yes you, make me smile!

on another note... i want to publicly say to danielle, that you are a wonderful person, and i am sorry for ever confusing you... i still want to be your friend, you rock!

Chelsea, we needs to still have or late night conversations on life, because those are the best...

i hate how i have been acting toward such great people the past couple months, please forgive... i am trying to better myself... one step at a time.

Mon, 16 Feb 2004 22:57:06 GMT

great weekend. caught up on missed sleep. hung out with special people :)

everyone seems to be getting over their past loves for valentines...

maybe it's time i do too :(

Sat, 14 Feb 2004 01:02:25 GMT

hmmm... feeling nervous.